A few housekeeping details before moving on to the issue at hand:
- Please note the new feature to the left. Thanks to Stacie's horrifying post on college tuition, I have decided my Quarters for College approach should be augmented just a wee bit. Feel free to click away.
- On my To-Do list is an update of my blogroll. I haven't updated it in ages. I would like to include more parenting blogs, particularly those of parents of multiples. Please leave any recommendations in the comments section. I have only happened upon a few and could use help finding more.
I'm enjoying my last few days as an at-home parent. They've been busy but there's much to be done to get myself ready for the return to work and get the kiddos ready for daycare. I dropped off supplies and paperwork today with our daycare provider - I will admit that I cried as I left and I didn't even leave the kiddos behind. I'm so screwed on Monday. It just won't do to show up at my new job all snewy and puffy-eyed. I'm nervous I won't be able to switch gears all that well.
The past few days have been filled with more kisses, hugs and cuddles than usual - which is saying a lot as I'm a snuggler by nature. I've even been able to snag some quality snuggle time with C who is usually too busy to be bothered to sit still. As ready as I am to return to work, there is the unavoidable fact that I will miss my children. I won't miss the baggage of being an at-home parent but I will miss the joy of simply being with them. I think this will be hard for J as well. His shift change has just been approved. He will now work from 7am-3pm instead of 3pm-11pm. The later shift allowed us to have some nice family time together every day, before he's exhausted from a long day. I feel bad for him because so much of the focus is on how hard it will be for me and it's not recognized by many others (friends and family) that this will be a hard change for him as well. He'll be picking them up from daycare by 4pm so there's still much of the evening ahead but it will just feel like a different kind of time he'll have with them. I know we will develop a new rhythm as a family but it's the transition that's the kicker.
Because I'm on the cusp of returning to work, much of my crankiness has disappeared just with the promise of mental stimulation and regular adult interaction. I'm even starting to think - huh, being at-home isn't that bad afterall, what the heck have I been bitching about? It's making these last few days even more precious.
I've got loads more on my mind but it's starting to get jumbled so I'll keep it simple. I could've boiled this post down to one sentence: I'm going to miss my kiddos when I go back to work next week.